a piece of my mind

This is good-bye. 

Dear all, 

Thank you for sticking to me for 2 years. It has been a wonderful experience. I have learnt a lot, I have shared a lot and I have learnt to write, a lot.

Life has been easy by sharing all the things with u all. On. A regular basis. But, I feel that I need to get more bold, and I am not strong enough for that maybe. I am not as bold and audacious as I think I am. Maybe because I am getting conscious of my words and my readers. 

There was a time when I used to write anything and everything I felt like. Being frank, open and care-free. What’s the worst that could happen ? That was what I thought. I am not proud to tell this but I am guilty. I have not been completely honest in some of my posts. And it is because I realised some of my readers are people I know personally. Sometimes, this affected me to be very frank. Because I do not want them to know I could think like this, curse people , get angry, feel lonely, hurt, or turned on. There is a whole list of emotions which cannot be shared with people who are close to you, atleast not with the identity revealed. 

If you have stuck with me for this long, I really want to thank you all for the support. Your comments gave me encouragement, your thoughts powered my ideas and your passion for reading feeds my passion for writing. I just want to tell that, I have not been honest but I have not lied either. It’s either true or the fact is missing. Not a lie. 

One of the reason for me to start writing this blog was that I did not want to lie. I was done with altering the truths, I wanted to embrace myself for who I am, what I have done. They may be anything, but they are my deeds, if I do not accept that, I am not worthy enough of any compliments I get either. 

I used to believe that I am very unique and all the thoughts I get cannot be fathomed by anyone else. Until recently, life has been very creative and informative. It’s become a mentor, it just knocked my doors and took me for a bull back ride around the world, through different kinds of people. And what happened next , I never thought I would be saying this or accepting it. Everybody thinks that, of not same only better than me.  Am not unique , there are many other guys who are handsome too, I am not the smartest. If I am anything, I am arrogant, dominant, a relationship fearing, over egoistic, atheist. 

There are still few things that I cannot tell here. And that is what that irritates me. This maybe be one of the longest post I have written in recent times, cause I am letting out all the feelings. The next time I write, it’s going to be anonymous. I am going to vanish . Be invisible , and yet leave my mark on this world. 

For all I can say, thank you for the 100 + subscribers, 200+ likes and thousands of views. If it really is a small world, you will find a post and recognise me maybe. Have a good one. Sorry for the countless autocorrected spelling mistakes. I will always respect all of you, cause you ate the reason I write. This is a bye, but not the end. After all, I will always write, if not here, then somewhere. 

By A lost Soul at Sea

a passionate writer who also happens to be a mechanical engineer and a sailor

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